Ravi Kant

Date: Mon, Jan 25, 2010 at 2:17 PM
Subject: Re: hii
To: Ravi Kant <ravikantg82@gmail.com>

Read below a foolish story which you n me will pitty on:
year 2007 march: i met with a guy named sahil

You should have met your soul mate instead.. Nany the Dude,Teja the Charmer, etc

year 2007 sep 2nd: was our first date where i hav seen for the first tym n decided to marry him,i thought he came to see me bcoz he love me bt the scene was different...i saw nly my body in his eyes nthin more than that...--convinced--

.. you know what it meant-- why to get convinced-- I was the bad guy.. the good guys doesn't look like me.. That I said before we met, I remember, do u remember?

year 2007:got to knw that he had a affair with a gal in past that too bed relation...--forgiven him--

.. Why to forgive.. i did not forgiven myself.. You are too young to even imagine that.. i came back from hell..

year 2008 jan1st:didnt wished me bt was with his frnds n a gal whom he dropped near her hme...n she caught his hand and was tryin to do something...--forgiven him--

(a) Wishing you happy New Year!! i m so scared!-- after Nany, etc's wishes you, Oh god in between if you get the call from your buddy then what will happen, You will keep me at hold.. Oh god.. that too my GF.. hey, I ll say, What is so happy about this very new year, B'day, V'day, etc's.

(b)..What trying to do something .. she was crying and asking me if I can help her live her difficult life..She don't have her Father, Mother is Sick and could not recognize her for years and no brother no one in fact.. she is the only person who support her family-- Rs. 10,000 per month working night shifts.. I said-- not interested because me not here for Charity.. Isn't it.. i give damn to. The poor gal i don't know where she is now! married or whatever.

Once she said- "I feel safe with you, as you are not like other guys who just want to use me for, feel like if I could be with you, I would definitely come out of my problems" Unexpected, isn't it! some gal saying this to a monster, Uhh surprised you!

Because I stopped her from the habit of taking drugs and all.. Surprised!

year 2008:wen i met him again n i saw a msg in his mobile of that gal....donno even knw that they met each other...---forgiven him--

.. Uhhh.. I don't have friends-- She is my best pal.

year 2008:again he went to her hme to give burger...--forgiven him again--

.. she was sick like hell,, Thyroid problem,. Blood Pressure, she even had Asthma... uhh, And the best part don't have money to eat and buy medicine that was month end I remember. That's What she said. I smoke fr 100 rs each day, 60Rs ka Burger kya chiz hai. Bhuk se mar rahi thi. and asked me if i can give 100 rs to buy some medicine.

year 2008:was madly love with him and submitted myself thinkin that he is my husband...

.. is it.. What do u call submission a submission.. Sleeping with me..? That any one can do. What I needed was a wife who could be a princess, And I understood that way, Can you compete to that level?

Being a companion on once bike, who wants to take the gal to the pub/Disc/Dancing in the rain, having Ice creams at Neck less road, meeting after college, a gang of gals and boys.., Birthday celebration, Asking money to give party to the guys from the boyfriend whose girlfriend is roaming with the same guy.. (teenagers dont do that i believe)

Uhh the best one I remember,Sunday morning me and my frnd having breakfast called on your frnds cell phone (kirtana).. she recognised me as "Nanny are you!" I said "no he is toh my guru, my gf is seeing him".... i was loughing at my self... how much he use to be around you... i can imagine tht.. You could have been dumped after tht..

My friend said- yeh kya tha, I said kuch nahi mere hone wali biwi ka aashique hai... ha ha ha.

Oh! dude he is (lucky guy)! The guy having all the fun, Takes my girl out and says "without commitment ka FUN". who is the fool, me or you.. Princess are you!? or just been a victim.. trying to be in the rat race, earning some reputation because the real boyfriend is out no where.

.. Can you come even closer to the level of my expectation? or is it a superficial expectation that is impossible to be true.

year 2009 feb 14th :was our last meetin

.. True!

year 2009 april 10th:he came to my to talk to my parents bt my parents didnt agreed...

.. I came to tel your parents " I could be your second son."

year 2010 jan 19th: msgd me that i should nt try anymore....

true, it is!

i don knw wat he is doin...i think he is free from me now....i wish he'll b happy from now...i knw i hav hurt u?bt wat ever ur thinkin its nt correct...sahil i can never do the thing with which u'll bend ur head with shame....u been with me for 3yrs and u knw wat im...i told my father dat ur nt interested anymore....i neva thought dat it vil b so worse...i always use to think that ill get a prsn who vil understand me n respect me for wat im....i knw u love me too...bt in different way which i cannot understand....

I am doing absolutely nothing, Working 16- 17 hours in my office, Sat to Sunday i drink till the bottom, so that I don't remember that how I have ruined my things. Or I have just born at the wrong time..

as u said im a teenager so these thing will happen....bt u were nt teenager before u met na sahil then without any gap after ur breakup with n***a....hw u hav choosen me as ur partner...if u really loved her u wuldnt come to me in short tym wat ever the reasons may b...im sure im nt like u i can neva imagine anyone in ur place...acceptin everything ur past ur relation ship with dat gal for 6yrs...bt i neva questioned u?bcoz my love on u dominated everything wtever u did with me....i neva opened my mouth in front of u...if i hav really that kind mentality todo multiple things i wuldnt hav fight with my parents...i thought ill get u...i neva saw ur money n loved u.i neva expected anything morethan love n care..i knw u hav some ego problem in ur brain..plz don behave like this with anyone....

after 2 and half year you came along .. I was the person who suffered the most, Betrayed, Lost my Family faith, Put all the money which i got for my education, fought with my own people, lost the self esteem, lost hope, lonely, drunk, drugged, wanted to take revenge, kill every one OR give another chance to your own life.

Tired! and wanted a hand for my survival. You are still too young to understand this....

There are much complicated people in this world than what you see people around, whom you can't convince by messaging a free text SMS to your friend, which came to me by error, I wish he ll understand what you meant to say.

**And you messaged me after 1 minute 30 secs after delivery of the mess not intended for me, "please call i want to say something"! Neha called me after 1 minute exact when she got cought.. (same thing)**. It is called act of damage control. You see!! last try to make them fool.. "there is the guy trying to nag me I was about to tell you this but got late by 1 min 30 seconds.. but you sucker saw me before.

Gosh! you are the most beautyfull gal in the world .. every guy in the world try to nag my gf.. god do i look so bad... or am so impotent or could only be used for purchasing mobile phone, dress, or sending money in various accounts...

Bitch's of the world ..make fool of your self.. If i ll do .. i ll pay the money and enjoy to the extreme... 500% better than the best of you.

i neva thought vil get apart...bt i thiink god also dnt want us to b one...its a wrong match...u said that u dnt hav anyone to care or to love u..dats y u came to me...bt i hav my lovin parents then also i came to u..u knw y bcoz of my mad love on u...this was my wrong step in my life...im sorry for everything wat i did....plz forgive me if u can....bt u knw one thing....

Correct it now also, you have some little time.

still u hav the same position in my heart....u can replace me with any gal after ur marriage...bt u can neva replace my love on u...this is the last tym v r gettin apart foreever.....i pray to god dat u should b good u need get everything in lyf 4m nw...dnt spoil ur health bcoz of me...im just a passin cloud in ur lyf which gave u nly pain....plz forgive me...

swearin on everything i neva thought to cheat u...i cant even imagine that...plz believe me i didnt hide anything...

And one thing I am not doubting on you, I am not in that league, do you know me truly, and claiming being 3 years with me!

uhh! its just the name you have written in your message had made you out from my ways.. knowing and talking about Girl having an affair is a far too a thought for me, that I ll remove before this occurrence can happen.

one request i think ull do it....plz dnt take my name in front of ur wife as u hav send a mail abt ur n***a to me...plz dnt do dat with me...i dnt want others to pity on our story...i think our relation is a beautiful one nly filled with love...so plz if anyone ask abt u or u want say abt ur past..nly say abt ur n***a....forget that i came to ur lyf...u yhad nly one lover i.e..,n***a.....dats it....thanks for everything...thanks for liftin me on ur head till nw....watever things u gave dat r enough 4 my lyf to remember u forever..ll nt throw till i die..

yes your story will not be told to anyone.. because that is certainly not important. Tell you why.. Because you cannot compete N****A

She did not called up her old friends just because she was lonely. She just wanted things in her life pretty fast. 19 year old, and I tell you I was more wilder than today. Use to slap her if there is a single mistake. She acted as if she is a wife and trying to make the husband happy. At least I felt it when I was around her.
She never called up anyone in the spree when she use to be with me for 7-8 hours in continuous, not even picking the phone of her family, because of the importance she gave to our meeting. I asked her why you don't even pick the phone of your brother, she said, no wasting time.. you with me is what i want, she was 19 year at that time.
What world would say , She made me talk to her Father, Mother, Her married sister and asked me if i can take her away, the time when i was not working, that i was unable to take her with me.
5 years, every new years, valentine's day, rose day, friendship day, B'day mine and her, Anniversary when we met, etc, she never gave a call to anyone without talking to me, it shows when you give love a importance, you don't keep your beloved on a call-wait when your beloved is on a call wishing you love and togetherness.. I feel sorry for you... when she said she love she meant it.. at least when i was around.
And i know she loved me and did what ever she could, but the matter of fact, the environment what she lived was more corrupt than What you live in and less educated than you are, there where no disco at that time where you have a photograph of a guy having a beer with your best friend in a pub from your MOBILE. BUT i m sure she never visited even a cafeteria and got wet in a rain that was so pleasant, rather she waited if we could get together hold each others hand in the same rain that you danced.
I have forgiven her long back,. she is married and happy with her spouse, at least she don't even lifted her head when i saw her recently, (a pale face.. lost the charm!) that is what i call, be with what you are being with. at least now she is honest and sincere to her spouse i thought her long back when we where together.. she dd not wrote this mess to anyone when I met her----- EDO OKATI CHEPU NANI.. NEKEM ANIPICHTAMLEDA...
She never left her Rose unattended when i gave her, in any occasion, along with various etc's. You could never know, the rose of our last meeting is still with me, rusted and dry, Asking " WHY DID YOU BOUGHT ME, WHEN YOUR GAL CANT EVEN KEEP IT WITH HER WITH ALL THOSE THAT YOU GAVE" I cried with the rose and Said, "Sorry, the gal is not NEHA! this gal don't know the value of this red rose of Valentine's"

In short she was just an ordinary gal that I have expected too much, i Thought leave her for a year and lets see if she could survive without.. she could not.. human being you see!

U just did something that another people did-- Wasted my time.

and you write

"hi,
plz remember dnt call to my mobile....its wit my dad...."

Sent a mass message to everyone or was it only for me... Bewakuff banati ho, the gal getting in this situation, can she convince any one in this world !!!?

I completed my job here, and i m not in charity that i will think of your family (your mom) and will accept you as I did every time.. Because its just high time for me. I am in too much of debt, and lonely, want to settle down with someone who is a Orphan, Handicap or whom-so-ever really want to be with me.

I think you got all your answers if you still want to discuss further, you can message me, but i really don't want to reply you back on whatever. I will only remember you as a women who did not helped me when I needed the most.

I am not trying to bring front bad things on you, Just wanted to write something which i feel is true with my open senses to help you open your eyes, If you have answers I know you will give cross questioning what i said above; but I will really appreciate if you please understand what I meant to say. I DON'T WANT TO HARM ANYONE, This monster just want to go back in its cage. leave me alone!

You are just a gal who don't understand what life could have become... You have learnt it from various sources, your environment and people around, Human Being you see!... no grudge from my side as no one is King here.. try living your life simpler as much possible as it could be.

As I told you since long the day's when we first talk., its not me whom you are looking for.

Wish you luck. may God give you what you always wanted and will forgive you.

love u forever...bye....BYE and alt+delete the message.

ishq ke mansuube kaise hain..
Raqib ne dikhaya jo tujhe raste,
hum andhere main hai..'
Tu baann sakti thi meri jo kismat,
Kismat ko yeh manjur kab hai!

what my love could have in its thoughts..

your lover have shown you the ways,

I live in the darkness..

you could have been my destiny;

the fate dissagree with me.